Me alone...

Without Further Delay!

2010-08-20T08:49:00.001+03:00

I want to start my life!

I miss my Dad...

2010-08-05T00:06:00.000+03:00

Life doesn't make sense without him!

Don't You Wanna Visit Italy...

2009-10-15T20:32:00.005+03:00

Locks of love clutter Rome's oldest bridge

By Ian Fisher
Published: Sunday, August 5, 2007

ROME — Love, in all its splendor and mess, found a fit expression on Rome's oldest bridge last year. Inspired by a best-selling book, then the movie version, young couples wrote their names on a padlock. They chained it around a lamppost on Ponte Milvio. Then they symbolically cut off escape by tossing the key into the wine-dark Tiber below.

But reality quickly set in, as it often does after passion. Thousands of locks and chains piled up. The lamps atop two lightposts crumbled under the weight. Neighbors complained of vandalism. Politicians who tried to solve the problem were accused - and this is bad in Italy - of being anti-love.

Late last month, a solution was finally put into place. City officials created official spots for the locks - six sets of steel posts with chains on the bridge - so now lovers can declare themselves without damage to the infrastructure. And so this city of monuments has just created another one, if at a cost: Tossing a key off Ponte Milvio, some Italians complain, may soon be as touristy and routine as flipping a coin into the Trevi Fountain.

"It's less romantic," said Costantino Boccuni, a 28-year-old soldier who had just affixed a lock to one of the new city-approved spots to declare his love for his wife of six years, Daniela, 26. "It was more beautiful before. It was more original.

"Now it's more like a fashion," he said.

But still, as Rome's distinctly lovely light faded into evening, they did it. And in the few days since the new posts and chains went up, dozens of new love locks have been sealed shut on Ponte Milvio, in a perfect world, forever (though in practice, the city will periodically prune the locks just as they sweep the coins from the Trevi Fountain).

The story of how Ponte Milvio, at the north of Rome's center, became the city's symbol of love follows a particularly Italian script, a perfectly balanced mix of history, myth, truly ludicrous political posturing and the unexpected.

First built in 206 B.C., the bridge attracted lovers long ago: Tacitus, the first century Roman historian and statesman, reported that even in his time it was "famous for its nocturnal attractions." The Emperor Nero, Tacitus said, visited there "for his debaucheries." (It is also the place where in 312, Constantine defeated his rival Maxentius. He became the first emperor to convert to Christianity, which to many Italians still stands against the sort of love often found on Ponte Milvio.)

Last year, a novelist and screen writer, Federico Moccia, wrote the second installment of a story of young Romans called, in English, "I Want You." Like many affairs, his hero's starts with a lie: He convinces a potential girlfriend of an invented legend, in which lovers wrap a chain around the third lamppost on the bridge's northern side, lock it and throw the key into the Tiber.

"And then?" the girl asks.

"We'll never leave each other," he says, with no shame.

Moccia, 44, says he just dreamed up the ritual. "I liked the idea of tying locks to love because it is more solid, tangible," he said. The book sold 1.1 million copies, the movie version came out - and soon life began imitating art.

Moccia said he was stunned when locks and chains appeared on the bridge, though he tied the craze to a lingering malaise in Italy, which is growing old, producing fewer babies, suffering from an economy that often keeps young people unemployed and at home with their parents into their 30s.

"It is a precise sign of our times - there is a lack of dreaming in Italy," he said. "We only hear bad news. There is no longer the smile of who we see from afar or near the dream. And that gesture of the lock on the bridge, of the feeling of the iron closing, it's a promise. It's beautiful."

Soon beauty turned to menace. Lovers came from all over Italy, joined by some tourists. The ancient bridge, which also attracts not only lovers but drinkers and no small number of pot smokers, began to be covered in lovers' graffiti, along with the overwhelming number of chains.

This spring, the city cracked down.

Inevitably, politics intruded: In this nation's long battle between left and right, right-wing parties accused the leftist mayor, Walter Veltroni, who may some day become prime minister, with a crime far worse than corruption.

"The left is against lovers," one rightist city official, Marco Clarke, charged in February.

Fighting words: An artful compromise clearly needed finding. Thus the posts and chains.

Lovers can affix their locks directly to them (which seemed to be the case in two recent, very pleasant evenings on the bridge). Or if they insist on chaining them to the lampposts, the locks will periodically be transferred down to the posts and chains.

"We have used good sense, meaning we realize that it is about a primary and innocent feeling," said Silvio Di Francia, a city official responsible for solving the problem. "However if all the historic bridges had locks we would have a problem with the maintenance."

So the tradition continues, if with some reservations about compromising on love. And some young Roman said that even before the new official posts, the tradition had lost its edge.

They complain that it has become just another tourist attraction, complete with two vendors selling locks on the spot for €5, or $6.90, €3 or €1 for the smallest. Families pose for cell-phone photos there.

"I would be embarrassed," said Michael P., a 22-year-old photographer's assistant who would not give his last name because he was smoking marijuana. "It's a question of dignity. If I want to express love, I will express it in my way."

But Gianluca and Federica recently marked their love with a lock, as did Ricky and Francy, Piti and Piti, several Mirkoses with suspiciously similar handwriting. Anna and Philip Colletti, from Montreal, marked their 25th anniversary with a lock. Their children told them about it.

"Twenty-five years of marriage - it might freak out these young couples," Colletti said.

Interesting Article...

2009-10-09T16:10:00.001+03:00

By Dr. Maisarah Taher

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They are 10..

2009-10-05T16:46:00.000+03:00

5 Chocolate
5 Vanilla

And it is 4:44 pm
I don't know I will arrive home with how many left!

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I think I am back to blogging!

2009-10-03T12:40:00.000+03:00

As we just got back to work after a long vacation, an Indian colleague gave me those "banglows-as she names it" and as she noticed I like wearing them..
The kind gesture and idea of remembering me had me overwhelmed.. The best gifts ever are the ones you do not expect! And yes most presents you know are coming!

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لو أنك ما كنت بكل حنان الدنيا..

2009-02-15T22:55:00.006+03:00

سيدي أبو ساري

مرت ثلاثة أشهر
الحياة بدأت تأخذ مجراها المعتاد
لازلت مبتئسة.. في خلوتي
رغم رضاي بالقضاء وتعايشي مع الواقع
وغيابك لازال محدثاً في قلبي فراغاً بحجم الكون

كنتُ، وندى تخبرني، والألم يصبغ حديثها بالسواد: "أشعر أن قلبي منسحق
وكأن من أخرجه من صدري واعتصره.. ثم أعاده"
موافقٌ احساسي لها
أشعر فعلاً أن قلبي مهشّم.. محطّم
فرحيل سارة أحدث اصابةً بالغة عانينا كعائلة من جرّائها ست سنوات وتسعة شهور مرت كالدهور المظلمة

وغيابك أنت أتى على بقية القلب المتهالك

رضيتُ برحيلك
أنا دعوتُ الله أن ترحل
كان أهون على نفسي أن تغدو في حياتي ذكرى فقط
جميلة رغم كل ما شابها..جميلة بكل معاني الجمال
وكل ما ينطوي فيها
آثرت أن أنظر إلى صورتك الضاحكة
فتدمع عيناي..وأترحّم عليك
آثرت رحيلك الصاعق المفاجيء
الـ لم يمهل عقولنا فرصة الادراك
ولا الطعنات المتوالية المسددة لروحي كل لحظة فتحتَ أنت عيناك الطفولية فيها
تنظر إلي.. ولا تراني
أعلم أنك لم تكن تراني
ولا تسمع ترجّي الباسم الذائب في جزعه ولوعته.. أن تعود إليّ

"عٌد إليّ..اشتقتك أنا
وأتمنى الوثوب بجانبك على السرير الأبيض
اشتقت أحضانك.. ورائحتك الـ أعشق
ضحكاتك.. لفتاتك.. وأغانيك.."

الحياة لا تزيدني إلا مللاً
برحيلك.. لاشيء يدعو للبهجة
ولا أجد متعةً في وجودي
انتهت برحيلك الحياة
وأشعر أنني لا خيار لدي سوى أن أعيش
ليس بيدي سوى أن أعيش
حتى ألقاك

كل التفاصيل الصغيرة تذكرني بك
أنت الـ ما غبت عني منذ افترقنا
كل الأحاديث الصغيرة تذكرني بك.. وأشبهك
تشبّهت بك..على سهوٍ مني تشبّهت بك
كلمة "حبيبي" التي أحدّث بها القط.. أثارت للتوّ كل الشجن في نفسي
واستدعت دموعي
اشتقت لحنانك.. واحتوائك..وتدليلك
برحيلك انتهى العالم
أخبرني ما الذي يجمّل الأيام ويدعو لاستمرارية الحياة؟

لازلت لم أبكيك
لازلت لم أفرّج عن فقدي.. وفجيعتي.. ومصابي فيك
أزعم أن لا سبب يدعوني
وذاتي مقتنعة تماماً أني ما انقطعت صلتي بك
أنت فقط سبقتني
وأنا لاحقة بك
أنا لاجئة إليك.. من وجع خسارتك
أعلم أن الله سيجمعنا
موقنة أن كما حباني الله بك في الدنيا..لن يعدمني رفقتك في الآخرة

أفتقدك
ولازلت لا أعي كيف انقضت السنون بجانبك كأنها سويعات
لازلت أذكر يوم ميلادي الثامن عشر
ابتسامتك ومداعبتي لك: "18 سنة عايشة ف عزك!"
فكيف انقضت السنون؟

وكيف رحلت..؟
هكذا بكل بساطة.. وهدوء.. وعجلل انسللت..؟

لازال في خاطري الكثير لأخبرك
ولازال في الوقت متسع أكثر لنتنزّه سوياً.. ونسافر سوياً
ونتخاصم ونتصالح سوياً.. ونضحك سوياً
ولازال في العمر ذكريات أكثر.. لنتقاسمها سوياً
وما انقضت من نفسي رغبة التدثّر بأحضانك
وتقبيلك عشرات المرات
لم أكتفي.. ولم أملّ
وبي احساس مرير بالفقد
وكأنك سُرقت مني
فلم أحظ بتوديعك
ولا بعناقك العناق الأخير

تدخل مجد لتسألني، وبملامحها معنى لا أفهمه: "مصدّقة انه مات؟"
- "لأ.. حاسة انه حيدخل عليّ الغرفة بعد شوية
أو حسمع مفتاحه على الباب ورزعته بعد شوية
أو حيجي يقول: ها نويّر.. اش نتعشّى اليوم؟؟
- انت اش تبغى ياقمر؟
- بس ولاشي.. مالي نفس.. هاتي "وصلة عيش" بس

اشتقت اتصالاتك كل صباح
اشتقت صوتك الصباحي المتثائب
غايته فقط الاطمئنان عليّ
اشتقت أغانيك.. و"صريخك" وغضبك الـ ما يلبث يختفي.. وضحكاتك
حتى فجعاتك لي.. اشتقتها حد البكاء!"

حزري كم السكر اليوم؟"
"كم؟"
"300"
"أرحمني يا بابا!!!"
وضحكات صوتك تستفزني: "ليه مو كويّس؟؟.. أضحك عليك.. 180.. كويّس صح؟
هوّا الدكتور قال لحد 200 كويّس"

حتى انخلاع قلبي عليك في مرضك.. اشتقته!!
فكيف رحلت..؟

لا طفولة كطفولة قلبك
ولا براءة كبراءة ابتسامتك
ولا طُهر كطُهر روحك..ونقاءك

وبياض نفسك..وحُلمك
وصفاء سريرتك
ولاشيء ولا أحد يشبهك
ولا قيمة لأي شيء دونك..ولا معنى للحياة بلاك

لا أفتأ أذكر ساري ممسكٌ بكفك.. ويهمس لك: "أحبك يا بابا.."
ولازلت أسترجع، بأسى، هاجر وهي تناولك الفرشاة لتمشط شعرك كما تحب.."من ورا كمان يا بابا.."
فهل كنت تستشعر قلقنا المُبطن.. ولوعتنا ولهفتنا عليك؟؟

لازال وجهك المُتعب الحزين يثير في نفسي منتهى الألم
ولازالت كلماتك: "وصيّتكم الولد - عبدالله - حقّي".. تبعث الهمّ في نفسي
وما انفكّت ذكرياتي الأخيرة معك تتداعى بعلقمها وتنداح من خاطري
حتى تتركني أكابد غصّة الفقد
ووجعه
وحُرقته
والشتات واليُتم من بعدك

أحسبني ما انتهت للتوّ طفولتي معك
.ما انفطمت من حجرك وقبلاتك
لو أنك ما كنت بكل حنان الدنيا
لو أنك ما كنت بكل العاطفة والحب وكفايتي عن الآخرين بك.. والاحتواء
لكان فراقنا أهون
ولكان عزائهم لي فيك.. أخف وطأة

"طلال حبيبي.. أحبك كتير"
ماما - يوليو 2008

جُعلت من شهداء الفردوس الأعلى
وجُعلت القبور خير منازلك

اللهم اغفر لطلال ابن خيرية وارحمه وعافه واعف عنه، وتجاوز عن سيئاته، وأكرم نزله ووسع مدخله..واغسله بالماء والثلج والبرد، ونقه من الذنوب والخطايا كما يُنقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس برحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين
اللهم إن كان محسناً فزد في احسانه، وإن كان مسيئاً فتجاوز عن سيئاته
اللهم أدخله الجنة من غير مناقشة حساب ولا سابقة عذاب
اللهم اّنسه في وحدته وفي وحشته وفي غربته..اللهم إن رحمتك وسعت كل شيء فارحمه رحمة تطمئن بها نفسه وتقرّ بها عينه
اللهم إنه صبر على البلاء فلم يجزع فامنحه درجة الصابرين الذين يوفون أجورهم بغير حساب فإنك القائل "إنما يوفي الصابرون أجرهم بغير حساب"
اللهم صلي وسلم وبارك علي سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم إلى يوم الدين
آمين

نوفمبر 2008

يارب.. اغفر لبابا وارحمه.. واجمعني بيه في الفردوس الأعلى برحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين

2008-09-29T00:13:00.004+03:00

اللهم اغفر لطلال ابن خيرية وارحمه وعافه واعف عنه، وتجاوز عن سيئاته، وأكرم نزله ووسع مدخله

واغسله بالماء والثلج والبرد، ونقه من الذنوب والخطايا كما يُنقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس برحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين

اللهم ابدله داراً خيراً من داره واهلاً خيراً من أهله وزوجاً خيراً من زوجه، وادخله الجنة واعذه من عذاب القبر ومن عذاب النار

اللهم عامله بما أنت أهله ولا تعامله بما هو أهله

اللهم اجزه عن الاحسان إحسانا وعن الإساءة عفواً وغفرانا

اللهم إن كان محسناً فزد من حسناته، وإن كان مسيئاً فتجاوز عن سيئاته

اللهم ادخله الجنة من غير مناقشة حساب ولا سابقة عذاب

اللهم اّنسه في وحدته وفي وحشته وفي غربته

اللهم أنزله منزلاً مباركاً وأنت خير المنزلين

اللهم أنزله منازل الصديقين والشهداء والصالحين وحسن أولئك رفيقا

اللهم اجعل قبره روضة من رياض الجنة، ولا تجعله حفرة من حفر النار

اللهم افسح له في قبره مد بصره وافرش قبره من فراش الجنة

اللهم أعذه من عذاب القبر، وجاف الأرض عن جنبيها

اللهم املأ قبره بالرضا والنور والفسحة والسرور

اللهم إنه فى ذمتك وحبل جوارك فقه فتنة الفبر وعذاب النار، وأنت أهل الوفاء والحق فاغفر له وارحمه انك أنت الغفور الرحيم

اللهم انه عبدك وابن عبدك خرج من الدنيا وسعتها ومحبوه وأحبائه فيها إلي ظلمة القبر وماهو لاقيه

اللهم انه كان يشهد أنك لا إله الا انت وأن محمداً عبدك ورسولك وأنت أعلم به

اللهم انا نتوسل بك إليك ونقسم بك عليك أن ترحمه ولا تعذبه

اللهم انه نَزَل بك وأنت خير منزول به وأصبح فقيراً الي رحمتك وأنت غني عن عذابه

اللهم اّته برحمتك ورضاك وقه فتنه القبر وعذابه وأّته برحمتك الأمن من عذابك حتي تبعثه إلى جنتك يا أرحم الراحمين

اللهم انقله من مواطن الدود وضيق اللحود إلى جنات الخلود

اللهم إحمه تحت الارض واستره يوم العرض ولا تخزه يوم يبعثون "يوم لا ينفع مال ولا بنون إالا من أتي الله بقلب سليم"

اللهم يمّن كتابه ويسّر حسابه وثقّل بالحسنات ميزانه وثبّت على الصراط أقدامه وأسكنه في أعلى الجنات بجوار حبيبك ومصطفاك - صلى الله عليه وسلم

اللهم اّمنه من فزع يوم القيامة ومن هول يوم القيامة واجعل نفسه أّمنة مطمئنة ولقنه حجته

اللهم اجعله في بطن القبر مطمئناً وعند قيام الاشهاد أمناً وبجود رضوانك واثقاً وإلى أعلى درجاتك سابق

اللهم اجعل عن يمينه نوراً حتى تبعثه آمناً مطمئناً في نور من نورك

اللهم انظر اليه نظرة رضا فإن من تنظر إليه نظرة رضا لا تعذبه أبداً

اللهم أسكنه فسيح الجنان واغفر له يارحمن وارحمه يارحيم وتجاوز عما تعلم ياعليم

اللهم اعفو عنه فإنك القائل "ويعفو عن كثير"

اللهم انه جاء ببابك وأناخ بجنابك فَجُد عليه بعفوك وإكرامك وجود إحسانك

اللهم إن رحمتك وسعت كل شيء فارحمه رحمة تطمئن بها نفسه وتقر به عينه

اللهم احشره مع المتقين إلى الرحمن وفداً

اللهم احشره مع اصحاب اليمين واجعل تحيته سلام لك من أصحاب اليمين

اللهم بشره بقولك "كلوا واشربوا هنئياً بما أسلفتم في الايام الخالية"

اللهم اجعله من الذين سعدوا في الجنة خالدين فيها مادامت السموات والارض

اللهم لا نزكيه عليك ولكنا نحسب أنه آمن وعمل صالحاً فاجعل له جنتين ذواتي أفنان بحق قولك: "ولمن خاف مقام ربه جنتان"

اللهم شفع فيه نبينا ومصطفاك واحشره تحت لوائه واسقه من يده الشريفة شربة هنيئةً مريئةً لا يظمأ بعدها ابدا

اللهم اجعله في جنة الخلد التي وعد المتقون كانت جزاءً ومصيراً لهم ما يشاءون وكان على ربك وعداً ومسئولاً

اللهم إنه صبر على البلاء فلم يجزع فامنحه درجة الصابرين الذين يوفون أجورهم بغير حساب فإنك القائل " إنما يوفي الصابرون أجرهم بغير حساب "

اللهم انه كان مصلي لك، فثبنه على الصراط يوم تزل الاقدام

اللهم انه كان صائم لك، فأدخله الجنة من باب الريان

اللهم انه كان لكتابك تالي وسامع فشفع فيه القراّن وارحمه من النيران، واجعله يارحمن يرتقي في الجنة إلى اّخر اّية قرأها أو سمعها وآخر حرف تلاه

اللهم ارزقه بكل حرف في القراّن حلاوة، وبكل كلمة كرامة وبكل اّية سعادة وبكل سورة سلامة وبكل جزءٍ جَزاءً

اللهم ارحمه فانه كان مسلم واغفر له فانه كان مؤمناً

وأدخله الجنه فانه كان بنبيك مصدقً وسامحه فانه كان لكتابك مرتلاً

اللهم اغفر لحينا وميتنا وشاهدنا وغائبنا وصغيرنا وكبيرنا وذَكّرنَا وأنثانا

اللهم من أحييته منا فأحيه علي الاسلام ومن توفيته منا فتوفه على الايمان

اللهم لا تحرمنا أجره ولا تفتنا بعده

اللهم ارحمنا اذا أتانا اليقين، وعرق منا الجبين

اللهم ارحمنا اذا يئس منا الطبيب، وبكي علينا الحبيب وتخلي عنا القريب والغريب وارتفع النشيج والنحيب

اللهم ارحمنا اذا اشتدت الكربات وتوالت الحسرات وأطبقت الروعات وفاضت العبرات وتكشفت العورات وتعطلت القوى والقدرات

اللهم ارحمنا اذا بلغت التراقي وقيل من راق وتأكدت فجيعة الفراق للأهل والفراق وقد حم القضاء فليس من واق

اللهم ارحمنا اذا حملنا على الاعناق إلى ربك يومئذ المساق وداعاً أبدياً للدور الأسواق والأقلام والأوراق إلى من تذل له الجباه والأعناق

اللهم ارحمنا اذا ورينا التراب وغلقت القبور والأبواب وانفض الأهل والأحباب فإذا الوحشة والوحدة وهول الحساب

اللهم ارحمنا اذا فارقنا النعيم وانقطع النسيم وقيل ماغرك بربك الكريم

اللهم ارحمنا اذا أقمنا للسؤال وخاننا المقال ولم ينفع جاه ولامال ولا عيال وقد حال الحال وليس إلا فضل الكبير المتعال

اللهم ارحمنا إذا نسي اسمنا ودَرس رسمنا وأحاط بنا قسمنا ووسعنا

اللهم ارحما اذا اهملنا فلم يزرنا زائر ولم يذكرنا ذاكر ومالنا من قوة ولا ناصر فلا أمل إلا في القاهر القادر الغافر يامن إذا وعد وفى، وإذا توعد عفا، وشفع يارب فينا حبيبنا المصطفى واجعلنا ممن صفا ووفا وبالله إكتفى يا أرحم الراحمين ياحي يا قيوم يا بديع السموات والأرض ياذا الجلال والاكرام

اللهم انه عبدك و ابن عبدك و ابن أمتك مات و هو يشهد لك بالوحدانية ولرسولك بالشهادة فاغفر له إنك انت الغفار

اللهم لا تحرمنا أجره ولا تفتنا بعده و اغفر لنا وله واجمعنا معه في جنات النعيم يا رب العالمين

اللهم أنزل على أهله الصبر والسلوان وارضهم بقضائك

اللهم ثبتهم على القول الثابت في الحياه الدنيا وفي الآخره ويوم يقوم الاشهاد

اللهم صلي وسلم وبارك علي سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم إلى يوم الدين

اللهم آمين

يا رب

2008-06-08T17:33:00.002+03:00

My dad has Cancer..

Please pray for Him..

And pray for Me..

اللهم رب الناس

اذهب البأس، اشف طلال ابن خيرية أنت الشافى، لاشفاء إلا شفاؤك، شفاء لايغادر سقماً

يارب.. اشفِ بابا

2008-06-04T23:55:00.001+03:00

دواؤك فيك وما تُبصر .. وداؤك منك وما تشعر
وأنت الكتاب المنير الّذي .. بآياته يظهر المُضمر
أتحسبُ أنّك جُرمٌ صغير .. وفيك انطوى العالم الأكبر

Pray for me..

...Love is not love - I

2008-04-27T23:00:00.003+03:00

I never learned how to review a play. Although I tried to teach myself, yet it seems that you have to master it; in order to beautifully present the performance.

I attended "Head Over Heel in Saudi Arabia" by: Dr. Maisah Sobaihi on Thursady April 24th, 08, and that was with no doubt one exceptional evening in Jeddah.
At the "Symposium on Learning & Technology" today, I ran into an old colleague who attended the same performance on the previous evening. She said: "Wednesday was "amta3" night in my life!"
Well, I do not know if that was "amta3 night in my life", but I surely will never forget such an exquisite experience!

"I fell in love..!"
"I fell in love.. in Saudi Arabia!"
The one-act started with words, pronounced in such a manner that had all audience on the edge of their seats..
Love is proven to be a major issue in Saudi Arabia!
After all, aren't we all secretly seeking love on top of all?!
The determination in the voice of the leading character against the word of other people, urged minds to question the means of finding/falling in love, what are the aspects of such a relationship in such a society? what would the beloved be like?
Each of the audience had a certain vision.. in which all of these various visions met an unexpected surprise at the end!

From love.. to marriage and its issues, the audience were swiftly drifted.
Women do object. They do get hurt, actually get smashed when their husbands decide to take another wife.
Regardless of all local practices & beliefs, “Social Responsibility” is just the lamest, silliest excuse ever!
On a personal view, I’ve come upon couple of articles that discuss the subject from this “Social Responsibility” way of understanding. Encouraging it obviously!
I do not really hold any hard feelings for our so-called Sheikhs, yet; COME ON! Be Reasonable! Is that the one & only way our society will be saved from “corruption!!!”
I mean, those people are neglecting all critical alarmingly debated issues in our society, which require urgent response, and are ridiculously labeling unjustified polygamy by “Social Responsibility”… Duuhhh! We’re no monkeys, you know!
I could only repeat what “Mariam” –in the play- said to her husband “Abdullah”: “What about cleaning the Cornish?! Haah!.. Isn’t that social responsibility?? We have BIG RATS at the Cornish!”

The play also touched on the “Mesiar” kind of marriage, one that has become a popular trend for some time now.
In my hand this moment, an article of Al Madinah newspaper, issued on April 4th, 08: “In response to a previous survey that was prepared by Al Madinah newspaper, 43% of young men stated their preference of Mesiar marriage as it does not impose any financial obligation on the husband!”
- Isn’t that just demeaning!
On the other hand, “Laila” –in the play- was realistic enough to face the fact that “I’m in a society that condemns an unmarried 26 year old girl, classifying her: an old maid! At the age of 26!!”
“Laila” made up her mind, decided to give it a shot and try the Mesiar option. Being her only option!
"Mesiar Marriage" for the ones who do not know, perfectly suits men with commitment issues! In short, it is “an unannounced relationship" – can’t call it a bond or commitment as to me, it does not feel so!- "It basically denies women their Allah’s given right of being financially supported by their spouses. It is supposed to be a secret; soon enough becomes a gossip, eventually on everybody’s lips!"
Willingly getting Mesiar married, “Laila” adopted same manner of simple women like her, dectating full devotion to 3rees al ‘3afla, ditching her friends in favor of her saver – as in this case: he saved her from ending up an old maid!

To be continued...

2008-04-26T18:35:00.002+03:00

Far7ana be 3awdat Fouad Al Far7an! =D

Beware of the Glass Wall!

2008-04-22T00:28:00.002+03:00

A research study was performed on fish who were put into an aquarium with a glass wall down its middle. Due to this glass wall, the fish grew up believing they could only swim half way across the aquarium, because if they ever tried to swim further, their little fishie noses would get smashed. After a few months, the glass wall was removed. Guess what? The fish still did not swim to the other side of the aquarium. We humans, with all our advanced consciousness, are often no better than those fishies. We grow up with limiting beliefs, which we hold onto... and which then hold us back from getting all we want in our lives.... even if these limiting beliefs are imaginary. For example.... If youre feeling like youre having a challenging time getting the healthy-love you want, the passionate-successful career you want.... the toned-buff body you want... thats because youre being held back by a leftover glass wall from your childhood... a glass wall which has long been removed, because, hey, that was then, this is NOW. And NOW is the time to get over your limiting beliefs and get on with living your happiest, most love-filled, productive life!

It is April Again!

2008-04-09T17:42:00.006+03:00

It is Spring..
It is my best time of the year..
Sadly, this April won't be spent in Beirut :(
I've been told the heat is going up this year unlike usual..
I miss "her" either ways.. Allah y9le7 al-7al..

UAE..
Leaving to UAE in about 12 hours from now, inshaAllah..
As I told a friend today: I guess I'm the only Saudi who has never been to there yet!
Well.. me and HP! :P
Ok dear, as I get back from there next week, the title will officially transfer to you! :P
Side note: Haven't prepared by suitcase yet, we marrah ma feyyyyaaaaaaa! :S

Dinner..
Just got back from a dinner invite..
Food was nice..
Pepper Steak, some sort of Chinese rice with Mushroom, Lasagna, Chicken & Spinach Macaroni... and more!
Oh I just can't absorb the fact of: Me, unzipping my jeans in front of people! :S
Mo Chic! but I had to do it! After all, I had to EAT!
I'm invited, and the lady actually.. Cooked!
Ma sha2 Allah 3laiha.. for a moment; I wished, for the future, if I could become a chef like her! Creepy! Me cooking! xD

Head Over Heels..
A play.. written, directed & performed by a wonderful lady..
I had the pleasure of being a student of hers at the uni., and I hold a great deal of admiration for her style..
At Effat College..
Wed. 23rd & Thurs. 24th of April
@ 8:00 pm..
I sense that it's gonna be good..

Me or You?

2008-01-29T23:57:00.000+03:00

She, has what I don't..
I; on the other hand, have something she doesn't..

And today, this evening, while I was at her home, visiting..
I couldn't stop my mind not to compare the different lives we lead..

Guess life's never all peachy and creamy and gives you all you wish for..

Weirdly enough, I was feeling just fine..
Satisfied..
Content..

Above all,
Blessed!

Who's having it better?
Me or you...?

Weather, time, diet, thoughts and 3ashora2

2008-01-17T00:24:00.001+03:00

The weather is really good!
Yesterday morning when I went out to work at 8:something, I felt chilling I swear I drifted into sweet doze the moment I settled in the car. Accordingly, as arriving; it was hard to get in full consciousness!
Wouldn't have minded if the driver offered taking a longer road..
The whole week though was not as good as the weather is.. had a rough one..
I'm arriving to acknoweldge this part of my personality: I tend to stay calm, even quieter than usual when really annoyed or embarrassed -- especially as it comes to matters of work..
Really hate to upset my loved ones that I know things in particular might concern them..
Anyhow, glad it's weekend.. Just about time!

Speaking of time, God knows it's shocking me how I'm running out of it ALL THE TIME!
I realize that I'm doing absolutely nothing, besides working and sleeping!
And if I happen to have the space and energy, I do not have the will!

I started dieting.. Never been on a diet!
And I really find it so hard to be restricted to a not-so-yummy menu!
Started Saturday, went fine.. actually got busy that I forgot to moan for good food!
Sunday of course, started cheating!
Anyway, as I weighted myself on Monday afternoon, I almost cheerfully jumped!
I lost a kilo!
Cheating continued, but I'm determined to manage keeping on track as possible till next month.. Many social gatherings and I really want to fit for the gown-show off!

Having second thoughts, having critical doubts.. and it's wearying and concerning me for some time now that my mind began to pursue a dangerous way of reasoning!
I was a lot like: "Ast'3foro Allah Al3azeem!" the couple past days..
But some incidents really evoke my mind to contemplate about the approach/manner/order/method life is being led.. and our destinies in accordance.
And my mind never rests..

I'm fasting for 3ashora2 10 and 11 of Mu7arram in sha2 Allah.. you guys should do too.. go google it.

Happy belated New Hijry Year!

Free Fouad!

2008-01-05T22:24:00.000+03:00

2008-01-03T21:31:00.000+03:00

"If I tell you I love you, can I keep you forever?"

A New Year Resolution?... Umm... No Thanks!

2007-12-31T18:10:00.000+03:00

Soundtracked by: Elissa - Ayyami Beek.

Less than 6 hours to 2008.

A Resolution.
Big word!
Before thinking of my new year's resolutions I couldn't help going over 2007's.
A flashback.
This is probably not the perfect moment to list a list.
I don't feel myself these days, or maybe this is me?!
Quiet more than usual? maybe.
Feeling the routine/boredom growing on me? kinda.
Missing things in my life? certainly.
Going through 2007, seemingly empty that I just cannot point any remarkable or pleasant event, news or even gather a happy notion of the year.
I'm not saying that it wasn't a good year, I just don't know!

No more gloominess!!!! =D
I'm thankful to Allah that all my loved ones are safe and in good shape..
grateful for all the blessings He lavishes on me..
wishful for more contentment and prosperity..
My true wish is, I wanna be a good Muslim! :) - that just hit me don't go sarcastic on me! :P

Never a new year with no resolutions! :P
Yalla 7atta law I didn't really heartily work to achieve them! :P

1- Get focused - I'm a scatterbrained person! =S
2- Get organized - My room still a mess since last summer!
3- Read often - I got to be a couch potato for the last couple of months!
4- Lose weight! - =$
5- Get more interested! - =D
6- Get involved! - =@
7- Get a hobby - Other than staying home in idle! =P
8- Be nice to others! *Daka elli 7a66 o9ba3o fe 3aino we me6all3 lesano! =P*

Oh and, Grow Up! =P

Right now, I'm loving you all! =*
I mean it! Seize the chance! =P
Yeah, even you! =P

Moi

2007-12-19T03:43:00.000+03:00

أنت بعيد عني
وأنا لا أشكو
أحسب أنني قد اعتدت بعدك

أنت الـ بعيد عني

ويبدو أنني مهما تقرّبت منك
سأظل على مدى هذه المسافة الفاصلة
الـ بيني وبينك

مُبعدة

يا أنت الـ مشغول عني
الـ لاهـي عني
الـ بعيد عني

=*

2007-11-22T23:50:00.000+03:00

I said so!

2007-11-02T17:05:00.000+03:00

Tomorrow shall always be better! =*

Cheese, Olives and Vanilla Tea...

2007-11-01T13:14:00.000+03:00

A Thursday Morning..

I do enjoy mornings of the weekend..
Got up early..
Love getting up early in the weekend.. love it!
Love taking my time in bed till I get fully awake..

Baitanaaa =D

I miss Liban!

Tomorrow..

Should be better...

Time Flies Like an Arrow...

2007-10-31T19:21:00.000+03:00

weekend already!?!
what shall I do with 3 more nights feeling down, doing absolutely nothing but thinking of you...?

Randomania! =)

2007-10-27T19:01:00.000+03:00

Funny how a small talk with each of your friends flips your mood! =)

Today was a long day!
In fact, it was a short one!
I was just thinking how all of a sudden it got all busy busy busy that I couldn't get the chance to call mama back!
Got home 5:00 p.m. feeling Ok, the short trip from work to home was full of mixed emotions..
This weekend was something....
I was smiling reminiscing about the past 2 days..
At the moment where a small laugh slipped out of me, I immediately looked at the driver and thought that he can now officially tell what a day dreamer I am!

I started chatting with (M)..
He was upset about stupid comments he got to some pix of his.
I said: "Delete them! simply"..
Then I paused: "Or wait wait.. I wanna check them out!" ;P
"aiiat soooora i wanna seeeeeee"
"al bent commented in ayyat pic?"
You can see how zannana I am! lol

I was joking around and teasing him about the thing..
Then as I was reading more of the commentary; I got like: "allahomma inni sa2em! 8\"
I was disgusted!!
Ppl., what the hell happened to some girls!
Well I could flirt beshagawa every now and then with some very close friends whom I know they do get me when I'm in a high mood! =P
But Come On!
Not to the extend of saying: "Ab'3a adooog!!!!!!!!!!"
Tedoooog?????? Come On! How tacky is that!

Whatever!
That just left me garfana, period!

Then I was chatting with (A)..
I gotta say it dude, that was kinda unexpected of you =)
I have always thought we'd never agree upon anything! =P
And yeah that's me being judgmental again! =P
So, I was doing the same old talk of: "i hate it when guys play with girlz soft emotions"
He: "but girls sometimes believe anything"
Me: "lamma someone ygool le someone: i love u,, what should it mean?"
Him: "many things"
Me *shocked!*: "wahh!!"
Him: "i care about u...i like you..i love u as in a sister...or it might be i love u as in a personaliy"
Moi: "care, included.. like, included. bs come on!.. sometimes u know when is it a sister love & when is it something else!"
Him: "also u should know if the guy is full of shit or not"
*Me laughing! loooool =P*
Him: "many ways...the way a person talks, the way he behaves and the way he things overall"
Me: "the talk & the bev. is just great! great as in he can never fake it!!!"
Him: "to me...i believe in a simple theory"
"there is nothing called as gf-bf thing ...if they like each other, he should go and propose to her immediately"
"other than that..is a waste of time"

Dude, I salut you! =P
But: "the heart wants what the heart wants"

Anyway,
That got me kinda side ways! :\

Finally, I chatted with (B)..
Now here where the real laugh came along! =P
After few lines..
Ana: "ur life is exhausting =P"
Him: "lol not always but at the moment it is"
Ana: " sometimes being busy is fun!"
"enjoy it while u can =P"
"bokra tseer doctor we te6fash mn shofat al morada kol yom =P"
Him: "looooooooooooooooooool"
"min jid :P"
"ba3den kman docs moshklah ma7ad yeshofahom fy ay mkan doc tra madry eh yoja3ny madry eh felo madry eh"
Ana: "loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool"
"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ya ba6niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii"
"u made me alugh wallah true!!!! waii!!"
"amma madri aih felo madi aih de wallah 9ada8t!!!!!!! lool"
Him: "wallah! tra we have docs with us in the gym.. 2 of them consultants bs eno they don't respond to those who ask them 3ashan it never ends!"

Well, this is a quiet evening.. and I really enjoy staying home! =)

Ate a lot of chocolate.. tummy hurts! :S

2007-10-22T19:37:00.000+03:00

There's this thing about me that really pisses me off!
I'm a hasty person, and I hate it!
I always, like ALWAYS!, do things I regret 1 minute later!

My World Revolves Around You..

2007-10-09T01:44:00.000+03:00

...and you will always be the true love...

For Those Who Are My Facebook Friends, And Those Who Are My Blogging Buddies.. Miss You All!

2007-09-13T21:23:00.000+03:00

Never thought I could get busy enough not to blog!
Although it's not like I do it for political or environmental purposes!
I guess I was really busy getting envolved in other activities!
Bored, that's a reason for a certain period!
Not knowing what to blog about, goes without saying!
Been away for some time too.
I just have to say that I'm sorry for not being around you guys..
Sorry for not replying, I do miss all of you.. a lot.
And I would like to take this opportunity to say "Ramadan Mubarak!"
Hope everyone is in good health and having a blast :)
I know I'm ugly.. I'll work on it! ;D

Kol Sana Wento 6aiibeen! :)

2007-06-08T03:27:00.000+03:00

I feel pretty,

Oh, so pretty,

I feel pretty and witty and bright!

And I pity

Any girl

who isn't

tonight!

;)

2007-04-16T07:12:00.000+03:00

To B.E.I.R.O.U.T

18 ~ 27 APRIL

I always meet you there..
You are still.. My Baby!

Tagged by HP! :P

2007-04-08T17:22:00.000+03:00

The Rule: “Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!”:

So simple & natural with others that almost everyone loves me, yet so picky & God Knows Why! I hardly really like anyone! :(

So contradicted with my very own self! So practical & pragmatic, so soft & emotional. So cynical & proudy, so shy & vulnerable!

Don't believe in the "Love Story" concept, yet long to live one.

I'm aggressive & harsh with guys! Mashkaljiah y3ni & would fight with them over anything! But most of them think I'm cute & sweet! :P Never mind the other few, they are just jealous!! :P

I Misunderstand signals! & tend to send wrong ones as well!! "It's complicated! :P"

Love the Polo! The sport & the candy! Guys who polo are extra sexy to me! I carry polo mints in everywhere.

I have a great sense of Superiority! I struggle to get rid of! :S

I adore my handwriting. I see my personality revealed through it in a way I just cannot describe it. My sharpness & softness are all in the way I draw the letters. I even stop writing my essays just to look closely & examine how uniquely I write! "It's crazy! :D"

No one, at all, attracted me through the whole period of my life, except for only one person. He had me head over heels the moment we started chatting, made me fly in the sky with a huge smile on my face! Turned to be married! With kids! And there my dreams go crushed!!

I'm a Shopaholic, a chocoholic, a coffeeholic & I have a slight 7awar in my eyes like Cyrine Abdel Nour! :) Have I mentioned that my parents were about to name me Cyrine too?

I tag: Bassem, BJ, A5med, Julz, Ali & who hasn't been tagged yet! ;P

!تسكن إليها وتسكن إليك.. لا الحب

2007-03-10T18:56:00.001+03:00

Just like almost everyone, the idea of the "Relationship" has always occupied my mind. And just like almost everyone, I've always believed in my "Perfect Match", "The One" for me, my "Soul Mate." Especially the latter! I wouldn't call myself Westernized, at all! In fact, I have my own accent! :D Stressing on stressing on my pronunciation and loving it! :) Nonetheless, the "Soul mate" concept has always been adopted by my mind and soul. Believing in it all the way long. As so, my thoughts have always been free, and I lived happy-go-lucky for the past quarter of the century clinging to the idea of that I'll meet my Right One only in the right time. I've never been "mentaly" running after a "Possible Perfect Match!" if you know what I mean!

Then, lately, I've been having these second thoughts about my personal definition of the whole story of the "Soul-mate-ness."
I've imagined the thing as:

Falling madly in love!
Butterflies in my tummy!
Growing shy! - It's my sign I swear! I know I like the guy when I go shy & uncertain! *Dorky smile*

Then,

Being at ease in his company.
Enjoying the silence.
Speaking my mind loud. - Knowing surely that he'll get exactly what I mean/feel/intend to convey.
And many more.

Then again, as I watch married couples around me, I see that even if they happened to have the whole "Soul-mate-ness" phenomenon before marriage, it certainlly dissolved!

My cousin has many serious troubles with her husband. She says that after less than 1 month! they started to face the ugly reality! They are horribly different! She refers that to although they had a 9 months period of Melka, they did not spend it into learning more about each other. It was not like discussing various issues in life to get to know their personal views. It was all like: "A7obbek oo t7obeeni & kisses!" -- Duhh! That's the tremendous mistake she states. She has a baby girl!

My uncle has even a disastrous marriage. He always says that his wife is everything he's never wanted! And he was "driven" handcuffed into this marriage under higher authority's - Family pressure! -- Duhh! Imagine!! He has 2 baby boys!

Note to self: Fight to bring yourself to understand howcome people "claim" to have troublesome spouses, and "keep bringing doomed childern to this miserable life!"

Now what I concluded is that:

In my cousin's case: She either secretly blindly in love with her husband, who's literally abuses her, or she fears getting the title of "22-year-old divorcee!"
In my uncle's case: He already admits that living in hell with his ugly wife is much more better than the loneliness he suffered being the only single guy in the family and among his friends!

Then I look at Mom & Dad. Ma Sha2 Allah, La Qwwat Ella Bellah. My Mom always says that they never had the "Butterflies" nor "Madly in Love" state. But I see what I've become more and even more interested into, the "Attachment." I see how they are at ease with each other, enjoying the silence and speaking up; especially Mom. Eventhough I've witnessed a couple of ups & downs between them, it's just hard picturing them leading lives separated from each other. Although they had and still having their small fights every now and then during the course of their 32 years long lasting -In Sha2 Allah- marriage, in my mind; they are glued to one another forming one entity... one being.

I'm finding myself more Out of "Madly in Love" state, In the "Partnership" bond. Where it should be like:

Me & you all the way long, no matter how badly we fight - I know we'll get our share! :D

Yet, that must be built on a sloid foundation. And again, my blueprint is:

Total Agreement on: Religious views, Daily routine, Likes & dislikes, Completing each other's personal mode/mood, the Willingness of sticking together and Fight for the unity.

On the other hand, the Qura'nic verse has always fascinated me. As the word "Love" has only been mentioned once through the Holy Qura'n. And it was to describe a devilish sensation too!

."في سورة يوسف، قوله تعالى: "شغفها حباً

Whereas the true genuine feeling is the "Intimacy" - "وجعلنا بينهما مودةً ورحمة"

I've been watching Good Will Hunting the other day. And this small dialogue between Matt Damon & Robin Williams grabbed my attention:

WILL – Matt Damon: You ever think about gettin' remarried?
SEAN – Robin Williams: My wife's dead.
WILL: Hence, the word remarried.
SEAN: She's dead.
WILL: Well I think that's a wonderful philosophy, Sean. That way you can go through the rest of your life without having to really know anyone.
A beat. Sean smiles.
SEAN: Time's up.

Do they exist?
People still attached to their spouses, even after being parted because of death?!

I don't want the love of sweet words!
I want this!
! السُكنى
The Attachment!

I'm lost!! :S
This post is so missing a theme! :S
What I know is that, I loved this article:
http://www.boundless.org/2005/articles/a0001123.cfm
And it got me supporting the "Myth" notion by all means! :)

THE MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT EVER IN MY LIFE!

2007-03-01T15:01:00.001+03:00

Dear,
I'm so much Proud of myself!
Yes, with a capital P, I; indeed; am!
Yesterday, I had the most Courageous, Brave, Grown-up attitude ever!

I was in a haste..
Just coming out of Bin 7omran building, as I visited my dentist..
Was really mind-occupied about the next check-up appointment..

Which is today..
Reminiscing & thinking over & over again..

About the jokes my dentist & I cracked together!
That was a lot of fun!
I just LOVE the guy! :D
Remembered that I noticed a white cotton trousers I liked in ZARA the day before..
But couldn't stop to check it out as I was again, in a haste!
So I decided to go & buy it to cheer myself up..
Stepped out of the car..
Marched trottingly to the crystal clear "Automatic Doors" of the gate..
With my eyes fixed on the lingerie that were on the shop window of La Senza..

AAAND BAAAAANGGGGGG!!!!

STUPIDLY HIT THE DOOR AND BOUNCED BACK!!!!
I DID BANG AGAINST THE AUTOMATIC DOORS,

WITH ALL THE RUSH I HAD IN MY BODY!
AND BOUNCED BACK!

Guys,
That was just as if you were sitting calmly mind-absorbed..
And an icy bucket of water was poured down at you!!
That moment the door slide opened - Goodmorning!!- and I, in a gigantic surprise yelled at the salesman who rushed out of Nine West to check the tremendous clash bam I caused..
I was like: "I DIDN'T SEE IT!!!"
Courageously, entered the ZARA show room to find EVERYONE, around 30 human beings, men, ladies & kids, frozen staring at me!!!!!
It was as if I paused a scene in a movie or something!!!
Everyone was looking frozen in a shock, no move, no sound..
I continued walking to the stair case with my eyes on the floor till I met the supervisor in front of me, there I HAD to say something..
So I said: "Kont ra7 a3mellakom crisis barrah!!" and smiled half-laughing drowned in embarrassment!
He was like: "7amdillah 3assalameh! inty mnee7a???? Sar elik ta3weed 3anna halla2!" trying to sound funny that bastard!!!
I said I'm Ok & moved to the 2nd floor, quickly grabbed the pants, payed for it & rushed out while ALL the salesmen were "Monshake7een" smiling at me!!!!

OK that was just a major public display of courage..
But it was too the last time I ever step a foot in ZARA AlTa7liah!
I'm not going there; not in the next 20 years!
Not untill they change all their staff & supervisor!!

Oh, and by the way, I WAS NOT OK!!!!!!
I hurt my toetips..
The right side of my face was totally numbed..
I still have a bump in my eyebrow..
And my ego is burning as hell!!!!

:S

2007-02-22T16:51:00.000+03:00

I think I gotta blog about this!

People, this is under the category of "National Motormouth Awareness" day!

Yesterday, called me this nice girl asking to get our lunch break together. I don't usually get lunch breaks, as I'm always busy & I'm someone who cannot just sit & eat while checking out people & doing nothing! I need to read or write -Yeah I do write while eating!- or be on the phone or simply enjoying the quiet company of somebody I love! So I prefer to have my tea & biscuits or kitkat alone when browsing the net or continue reading a novel.

Anyhow, when someone calls for my company I don't reject the invitation unless I'm really busy & cannot get rid of it! So when this girl called, I headed to the cafeteria; eventhough I'd already had my 3rd cup of coffee & a piece of a something with cheese inside! There, I grabbed a cup of Mocha & seated myself waiting for her to join me.

GOSH! That was a mistake! Even a Huge one to meet her!

From the very moment she sat on the chair opposite to mine, she started talking talking talking... AND TALKING! about nonsense! about things that don't interest me by no means!

People! I was tortured to death for what seemed like endless 30 minutes!
It's not only that! When my turn came to reply to her garbage talk -Excuse my Swedish!- she rudely allowed her annoying eyeballs to view the people in the place as in "I don't really care for your opinion anyway!"

That was hard! Keeping a smile & trying to act as if I'm interested & enjoying!

Keep that aside!

While she was yacking, my mind drifted to visualize my very own self when I get hyper & talkative! I know I could get to be a motormouth myself! So I was trying to analyze the situation.

Do I sound like her when I'm bubbly & loud?

Do people feel the same way in my excited presence?

GOSH! That would surely be a great disappointment for my ego!

Ugliest Feeling!

2007-02-15T22:41:00.000+03:00

When you

Someone....

Don't get

in return!

This is a Private Talk! But I'm Opened about It! :P

2007-02-14T00:44:00.002+03:00

WARNING! [underlined! 8D]
I'll keep going & coming, don't mind me! :P

* * *

I'm loving you for the moment! :D
Ok Ok! I know I've been MEAN to you for a while!
I'm in a good mood for the moment, so seize it you Dork!!!! :P

You are my teeny weeny little secret! :x
You are just GLUED to the inside of my heart!
AND NO ONE WHATSOEVAAA CAN RIP YOU OFF OF ME!

These are some RrRrandomz factoz about me - you'll like'em :P

I'm LOVED! :P

Well! Yeah Sure! Dddaaahhhh!!! :P

No I meant La9aga people still love me!

Although I'm being all the hard-to-catch busy busy all day!

They still INVITE me to coffee & seduce me with candies!!!!

And thay aren't of any taste!!!!! - The Candies I mean! :P

I'm still suffering of "slightly" not being on good command of focusing!
Today I was thinking that I should water my little plant before weekend & was
talking to the voices in my head inno after al '9ohor prayer I'll put on
my glittery slippers Mama bought me & go get some water..
Ok till here still fine. The crazy thing is, I recalled that my little boiler Baba
bought me had this - just perfect to water the plant - amount of extra water
& was - Again! - talking to the useless - having major troubles in focusing! -
voices in my head that I should empty the boiler, without noticing
that it's just SUITABLE to water the plant!!!!!!
And I - for my 3ajaz & stupidity! - added the extra water to the left tea in my mug in order to get it washed later!!!!
Just as I emptied the boiler, my eyes caught the poor plant
& I was Loudly like:
ANA '3ABIIIA!!
BE'3ABAAAA2Y!!!
MA ABA66EL '3ABAAAA2!!
I hate it when such incidents occure!!! :$

I'm br'9o still being nasty to some people!

I dunno why!!!

But I enjoy it! :D loool

I forgot my cell in my drawer yesterday & didn't feel like going back to pick it

And I found it rather teasy in some way to keep it away then check who called or sms'ed!

So this morning I've got ONLY ONLY ONLY 1 MISSED CALL!!! ONLY!!!

Dear!!!! I was disappointed!

Anyway, it was my friend, I called her back for only 2 or 3 rings'at then hung up the moment she answered!!!!

Well COM'ON!! I'm not that Psycho!!!

I thought it was too early to call people! plus I didn't want her to feel good I'm returning her calls! :p

So sometime later, she called again & was asking about this shop that used to be in Al Basateen that prints & embroiders whatever you like on any garments.

I've never known there's such shop in Jeddah! let alone Al Basateen!!!

She got me ALL HYPER & CRAZY cuz I've like ALWAYS wanted to get that!

Kalam of my own on my T-shirts!!! 7amaaas! ;D

And I was just thinking the other day about it! wondering if I could get it

And reminding myself to ask the girlz if they happen to know any...

I don't know!!! I don't live in Al Basateen!!

but I was Madly asking her if she got to know where did they

move the shop.... TELL MEEE!!!!

I've got many 5arabee6 to WEAR! ;P

Ya Nasss I just LOVE quotes & kalam on T-shirts!

I was wearing this red T-shirt of Stradi. that says: "Your Boyfriend Bought Me This T-shirt!" & all people were smiling & telling me how mean I was! lol

I know this couple of guys who started this project of writing - bel3arabi I guess - on T-shirts, I just loved their idea - the guys are cool too! ;P

* * *

Can't wait till Summer begins!
I need sunshine!!!
And I'm feeling too white too! 8D

* * *

I'm on-line now with my sisters & little brother & cousin,

my dp says: "F*ck You!"

They're all showering me with: "Ish gellat al adab elly inti feeha dee!!!"

"La7oooool!!"

"Gad keda 7yatek zeft???"

"I like your pic.! ;)"

loooool

I'm nudging my brother cuz I want to ask him what does this word mean??? ;P

But he's not answering me! looooooool

I LOVE HIM WHEN HE GOES MESTA7I! LOOOL

He acts nonchalant & careless! lol

* * *

I've never been to Black Rose untill the other day when I was out alone with my uncles. I was asking about new Cafe's & restaurante's in town when my older uncle said he'll take us to the Black Rose & we'll dangerously gonna like it!

The moment we stepped out of the car my other uncle said: "La ya ..., ma neb'3a ma7allat itnain y7obbo ba3a'9 w '3MBAJA!!!" LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL - referring to the totally dimmed place, as fe "Hai2a disaster" about to happen! shakly kan marrah '3ala6 & Ba666al alone with both of them! ;P!!!

I swear I still laugh at that night! I asked him how come you're saying so???!!!

- He's romantic but of a bad luck!! lool

I adored the '3AMBAJA word though!!!! lool

We - my sisters & me - are planning to go bruching tomorrow - I suggested Casper & they'll like it whether they like it or not! :P - Just now my sister told me: "Tomorrow is the Valentine's & kol al amaken itnain y7obbo ba3a'9 w '3ambaja!"

lloooooooll

Yeah I know dear! And I've already backed myself up!

I've just joined the Anti-Valentine thing group on Facebook! loool

* * *

Guess I'm done now! ;D

Ladies & Gentlemen, this is the Q & A part!! :P

* * *

Sweet dream ya hubby! ;)

*"Never Neglect the Little Things of Life"

2007-02-10T20:07:00.000+03:00

I was chatting the other day about different things; till we reached the subject of appreciating the little things in life that really matter.
Surely each one of us has their own list of "little things to be happy about!" These little things are; indeed; what form my personal concept of Contentment, in which I sense in every angle of my daily life.

I feel Content in the company of my sisters when we spend a day out, madly shop for almost everything, act dorky with salesmen, lunch/dine in Fuddruckers - & again act free-spirited with the nice Saudi waiting supervisor, so he takes the charge with serving us although it's a help-yourself kind of a dinner! ;D When my sister goes to get some forks & napkins, then comes back empty-handed, saying: the nice guy said something in a Najdi accent meaning to rest & he'll get us what we need. I go like: did he say "inthabri" & I'll get you guys the ketchup??. These moments of being loud & bubbly making stupid jokes out of almost everything, matter the most to me than being invited to the posh wedding ceremonial in Lailaty where some other girls – I know them quite well! – eager to get dressed & mingle with the high-class society of Jeddah – that's their hidden intention, even though they act indifferent! - I'm glad I'm not one of these people! I'm not a wannabe! :P

A moment of Contentment is when I go out carrying my fake Gucci, and my cousin shows her admiration of it, and I; in good faith; let the cat out of the bag & say that: it's a copy from Beirut! She remarks: it looks so original, as I second it. Later, talking to myself, I feel so stupid! I don't have to be that detailed about everything! Then when I mention the incident to my sisters, each, separately, emphasizes in her own words the fact that "We don’t have such complexes & psychological issues to act or pretend the opposite or try as much to hide the facts! It's not like that we don't own the originals, but at the same time we do enjoy the bits & pieces"
I'm genuine! And I appreciate being honest with myself at first, then with others. In my words: I don't wear a dress that does not fit my figure! And I'm Content of being my true self!

Little things in life that really matter would be each single minute that is to be spent with my family, among my loved ones. Sticking together regardless of all the fight & struggle moments we "enjoy" every now & then! It's when we come to blows over trivialities like children, like really fight, but then cannot stay mad at each other as Mom or Dad works on conciliating between us.
It's when I go broke – as I always am! – and beg my sister to lend me some money – as I always am! – and then the loan remains unpaid for ages till my sisters start complaining to Mom about my procrastinating in paying them back & threaten to cut off all the financial & logistical deals with me, so I go paying everyone to the last halala & end up… Broke Again! Mama feels sorry for me, secretly gives me hundreds of riyals and stresses on keeping the source unknown for the girls!

I'm Content!
I'm blessed with my family members.
I'm blessed of inheriting the principles, originality, integrity, self-sufficiency, kindheartedness & good intentions. Not that we're the perfect happy family ever! But I still believe that we are one of the few Real People in our social circle. And I do believe that family is what shapes all the little pieces in individuals, which are the little things in life that matter the most. :D

Reunion...

2007-02-01T16:56:00.000+03:00

Haven't seen her for around 4 years. Haven't really talked to her for around 7 years. Although her workplace is just around the corner of my home & she doesn't live far away! We've known each other since our early teens. Had our ups & downs, & seriously been through hell; each in her different way!
Thursday 1:30 p.m. I picked her up from the office & the driver drove to where I informed him before she got in the car.
I'm a loud, childish & clumsy person when I feel like so. Incredibly cold when I feel like so. And can be a pin in the a$$ when I feel like so!
- "Where are you taking me?"
- Smilingly: "None of your business!"
- "O.K.!"
I was hesitant for a long while. Ever since we agreed to lunch out; my mind was between Senses and Chili's. I favored Senses a lot, but considered the possibility of getting bored in her company! So Chili's was it, at least I'll get to meet buddies I like in there! ;).
As the driver parked, she asked: "Are you going to get the box with you?"
"Yes."
"Me too."
We were born in the same day. The boxes had our presents we intended to exchange.
For some reasons, long years have parted and drifted us away of each other.
She had many unpleasant stories to tell.
I've had my share earlier and didn't plan to recall the unlikable memories whatsoever!
20 minutes have passed with her voice only heard in the space.
Manchester United was playing in front of me, I'm a fan and she's getting my spirits down with her talk!
All of a sudden, I started to smile, really smile! For no particular reason, feeling nonchalant & cool!
The good looking Bedouin guy was smiling back & peeking at me! :D
Couldn't help it! Couldn't stop smiling/half laughing! Couldn't stop peeking in return! :D
She noticed what was going on & looked at me in a quiet not-so-good look!
She's got a pastel crystal bracelet & I've got a DKNY t-shirt.
We got back to my home.
In my room, she picked my mobile and remarked: "Nice mobile!"
- "A gift."
- "Men meen?"
- "Someone!"
- "Zogo 7elo!"
- "I know!"
- "So, what's his name?"
- "Meen?"
- "7abeeb algalb!"
- "Mazolla?" acting fool! :P
- "Bala habala!"
- "You've known me for ages, do I look like a girl who has a boyfriend??!"
- "Sure! Enti 5abeesa!"
I looked at my reflection in the mirror with a WTF! look on my face!
- "Do I?!, everybody says I'm a katkoota & baby face! And you say that!! Why?!"
- "Cuz M7d ygdar y3eesh mn '3air 7obb!"

I had many questions in mind.
Is it true that "Out of sight, out of mind?" And who once used to be a really close friend, almost a soul mate could easily get to be a mere person?
Is it true that appearance deceives?
Is it true that "M7d ygdar y3eesh mn '3air 7obb!"?

My driver took her back to her office.
I met her later in Al Na5eel with a bunch of Swedish guys! ;x
That was another really good story to tell!!!!! ;)

She just phoned me.
Tomorrow is our Hijry birthday.
I think we're going out! :)

One Fine Day!

2007-01-22T21:50:00.000+03:00

This is a good day!
Nothing really special about it yet; each day goes by with mom & dad in good shape, is indeed, a good day! Through the past 5 years, I learned many major issues in & about life. I learned that, one should always count their blessings. I do that, literally, every single night before I go to sleep. I learned that even in my down days, it could've gone worse! So I say Al7amdolillah. I learned that happiness is not exactly what I feel in my heart; it's rather the smiles of contentment I see on my family members' faces. That's genuinely what embodies my personal interpretation of Happiness. A good evening, is not the one where I wear on my expensive My Fair Lady abaya, put on some light make-up, hold my Dior flashy red purse, get on my gorgeous high heels sandal & head to Bubbles!
A really truly good evening would be the one I take my evening shower, search for my comb in drawers & realize that it's been a considerably long time since the last I actually combed my hair! "No! Sorry! Brushing fingers through locks isn't technically combing or even tidying!" It's when I pick my mobile to check for SMSes & I find 2 missed calls from Daddy. And just while I'm looking at his baby name on the screen; his loving face appears as he calls for the 3rd time to tell me he's bringing "M6abbag" for dinner, in case I wish for some! Daddy knows well that no one eats m6abbag at home besides him, so he offers some "Fa6eer?" I enthusiastically say "Sure!" even though I'm not hungry at all!
An actual good evening is when I get dressed in my pajamas, prepare for our little family banquet & wait for Daddy to arrive!
I'm laying down on my bed right now, after successfully polishing my Tweety silver bracelet, having a pair of London's KitKat for dessert, applying honey based facial cream "which was Mom's & she donated it to me after I showed a good deal of admiration! :D" & writing today's down in my diary to record another "One Fine Day!"

Got to read few pages now & bring myself to sleep...
Tomorrow is another long day! xoxo

2007-01-18T20:38:00.001+03:00

Ok, I'm in the mood of posting something...
Although I've got many things in mind, I decided to steal Najdi's post :P
Ana maly! I asked for his permission less than a minute ago & he can take his time to give his consent! :P
Thaaaaank You Najdiiiii :P

Well I answered the questions in his blog, then I thought of copyin' them in here & sharin' them with ya :D

:P اسمي : كل واحد يشوفني يقول شكلي اسم غير اسمي! سو ذس از فور ذوس ونز

;P اسم الشهرة : أم براطم

:D العمر : عقلي عقل مجانين مو عقل سني

برجي : القوس

!الشهادة : باتشلر ديقري ان انقلش ليتيريتشر

شخصيتي : متفائلة، أبكي بسرعة، حونشية، عندي استعداد دائم للمضاربات، قليل اللي يعجبني، نقّادة، عندي احساس بالسوبريوريتي، كيوت وحبوبة وكل الناس تحبني…. وحلوة كمان! أنا شايفة كدا أنا حرة

!معنى السفر : الفلّة، التغيير، الاستهبال، السوق

!المزاج : اليوجوال رايق، ما أعتبر موودي أبداً، بس لما يقلب أسير مرة كرانكي وأخلاقي زفت

يومي خارج الذروة : ما فهمت اش الذروة دي بصراحة! بس عندي نوع من الروتين في حياتي، روتين صحي وجيد ترى ما أطفش منه ما شاء الله، يعني أحس اني مرتّبة أيام الأسبوع من العمل للبيت إلا إذا فيه أمر يحتاج أطلع عشانه أو جات عزيمة على فوجاءة! ما أقول لأ

المشتريات بالنسبة لي : أستغفر الله مرة أحب صرف الفلوس والشراء! يعني إذا ما عندي شي محتاجته أطلّع لي أي شيء بس عشان أصرف الفلوس! الله يهديني! بس بصراحة أحس اني من الناس اللي مستمتعين بحياتهم ما شاء الله حتى لو بالقليل وبعض الناس يشوفوا حياتي مملة وأنا أشوف العكس! - مدري اش دخّل دا في المشتريات بس مشي حالك

*heart beats* اكلي المفضل : الـ إتاليان كوزين از ما فيف! كل شي مكروناتي أحبه

xoxo الصفة المأخوذة من والدي : مدري اش بالزبط! بس أحس فيّ كتير من باباتون حبيبي

الصفة المأخوذة من والدتي : أكتر شي أكتر شي: الحنان وقت المرض

أكثر ستة أشياء أكرهها : الاستغباء، الانسان اللي يحس انه يعرف كل شي!، الجدل البيزنطي، البلادة، أحيانن أحس انه ما عندي أشياء كتيرة أكرهها! - مع اني نقّادة

أكثر ستة أشياء أحبها : لبنان، جلسة البيت، الكت كات اللندني، الشعر القصير، التان، سماحة الوجة والخُلُق، بابا وماما، الشوبينق، سترادي، الموية الباردة، الأفلام، الخيل…. ومرة أشياء كتيرة

!مفهوم العمل عندي : العمل = الحياة…. سيمبلي

الكمبيوتر والنت في نظري : من الناحية العملية: البي سي 90% ضرورة ضرورة ضرورة والنت فيه كل شي! ومن الناحية الفلاوية: برضو النت فلاوي

Ok guys, I may sound dorkie! :D

But I was just having fun in my own way! ;P

Feeling Terrible!

2007-01-17T17:40:00.001+03:00

Emotionally tired! :(
In a minute; I'm busy up to my ears,
& the other; some ugly disturbing news just come up to upest me!
Feeling terrible!
And you're not gonna like it!

To All Bored Workers! ;P

2007-01-12T15:28:00.000+03:00

If Only It Was That Simple! :P

My Unlikely to Come True Wishes for 2007!

2007-01-04T23:03:00.000+03:00

I Wanna Have a Plastic Surgery!
I want to get through the front window of the oven, & get out looking like Anna Kournikova! I know I know, there are many other even prettier girls, but Come'On! What do you know! She's Enrique's girlfriend! :P

I Wanna Be the Next James Bond Girl!
Acting in a 007 movie is my all time fantasy ever since I was 15! I want to play/fight with James for half of the movie, then get in troubles with the KGB so he would come rescuing me, take me to an isolated beach & kiss me like he never kissed before! ;P
* My James must be either young Sean Connery or Pierce Brosnan! Roger Moor is OK too! ;P

I Wanna Have a Buzz Buzz Night Out!
Riding an Aston through the streets of Beirout next spring/summer prime, till I reach up to B7amdoun, then go down to Al Manara again. That should start 9:00 a.m. and end 5:30 p.m. Then attend a masquerade party dressing like a naughty angel, get flirted by all the cute guys and finally get to the Movenpick lounge where I listen to the piano playing & get wasted over an expired pineapple juice! ;P
* Are you coming with me? ;x

I Wanna Walk on the Red Carpet of Hollywood!
Wearing a hot raspberry Valentino's, 10 cent. high heels, people snapping photos of me "like flash blinding! :P" and George Clooney's palm resting on my waist! Or even gently touching my bare back! ;P
*Georgie, I'm in your hands Babehh! ;P

I Wanna Fly a Glider!
And the captain must be good-looking & of a GSOH! ;P

I Wanna Get Back Thin Again! :(
Right now, losing the 5 God Damn kilos I keep gaining & losing every couple of months for the last 2 years, is my main concern! I'm desperately longing to look like a super-model! I want to catch the trend & get into a skinny denim!
* I abhor Gisele Bundchen! x-(

I Wanna a Little Tiffany Blue Box!
Fantasying my first official present from my special ducklove being a bracelet of Tiffany's. Wrapped in the most famous blue box & white ribbon.

I Wanna Get Tattooed!
A Pair of an angel wings on my back. I've almost been there several times. I've had the number of the tattoo people but then I chickened out as I know that Mama WILL KILL ME!
* Ok, I don't imagine it that large; eventhough I like it! Truly do! :D

I Wanna Spend a Weekend in a Vectorian Hotel!
Accompanying some one I get to pick, I would love to have a short vacation in a little cozy Parisian hotel. A fireplace bedroom, all traditional style & stuff. And in the mornings; I want to receive the typical breakfast of Omelette & Cafe' Ole'!

I Wanna Get Over All the Obstacles that Keep Us Apart!

...

2006-12-23T16:35:00.000+03:00

This is one of the nights..
where I can truly; sense the emptiness..
of my soul!
I miss you..

Horsie Horsie...

2006-12-14T13:07:00.000+03:00

Updated!
I'm not sure if I have enough energy to talk about anything, these some more pix & I promise! I'll talk later! :P

* * *

I fed him some sugar today! :)
& he licked/sucked my fingers!!
marrah y333 feeling! :$

Wa7ed horsie mrawweg! lol

My old lady Linda!
She's Old, I mean it! :P
but a crazy one!

On top of Linda! :)

Al Motahadi
A7esso marrah maskeen I dunno why!!!

Sondos

Contrast again! :P
I just Adore him!

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This is Laila!

Really nice, but forgot the name!

The attractive Contrast! :)

Mmmm...

2006-12-05T18:16:00.001+03:00

Soundtracked: 'Fe galbak' - Talal Salama.

Aaaaaaaahhhh...!

Simplicity is it!!

2006-12-03T18:49:00.000+03:00

That just made me smile the moment I grabbed the cart..

Few are the ads that get me smiling! :)

The "kida oo kida" part is just endearing!

Suffering the Missing...

2006-11-30T01:46:00.000+03:00

And thought of letting you into the bits & pieces of me..

* Right now, I'm missing you like hell!

* A lump of tears still forms in my throat each time the same subject pops up.

* Fear of losing you, although recently you are becoming more of a memory.

* Don't feel interested into online-meeting new people, & seems like youngers are so attracted to me in this phase of life! I'm willingly giving them my real info. Kids are sweet. Don't hurt my heart!

* Back to the Horse thing! & this time I'm determined.

* Angry at what's happening to Lebanon. The other day I was laughingly telling others: "Bombing, no bombing, I'm going to Lebanon!" My luck is being too cheezy with Lebanon lately! I miss there.. a lot! :(

* My back is back to aching!

* Still as fat as you left me.

* Mornings are truly hard without you.

* You are the love of my life. The only one!

Will have a serious talk later! ;P

2006-11-22T23:47:00.001+03:00

Talking about Found & Lost...

*Hopefully, Lost & Found...

I'm more of an optimistic person. A Sagittarius after all! :)

It's life, that dictates and applies its own rules. Being the mature little girl I am, I learnrd that neither happiness ever lasts, nor sadness. So why get easily vulnerable and dejected by everday's ups & downs?!- Now these are the words of a wise wise young lady, who's her little brother tries as hard to seduce her into Play Station2 and computer games and she's always been rocky resistant! :P

When I first determined a new biginning, it was the decision by the mode of a ballistic missile!

To tell the truth, I didn't feel like I need to pull any trigger or so! It was hard I admit, but I understand my nature. I'm someone who must jump off the edge to get what I have in mind into action, i.e.: Suicidal Nature! :P otherwise, simply, it would never going to happen!

Million things were going round and round through my head, but that exact moment where I made the re-start shot, was the jumping-off-the-edge moment.

Later on, I felt a teeny tiny bitter taste in my mouth!

The taste of Ugly Lost!

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Soundtracked by: 'You're Beautiful'- James Blunt.

That same Lost I felt for some recurring times after I donated my whole bunch of stuffy puppies, huggy bunnies & teddy bears. That was about 5 years ago, and till this right moment; I can still sense & suffer of the fara3' 3a6efy I gained out of my hasty action...! I've only kept1 brownie teddy bear that I still hug every night & really cherish it.
That same feeling of Lost I got hit by when I sent my PC to get it formatted- my idiot brother's advice; for it turned out that the PC needed no formatting! That day I was busy & sort of high & exultant for some reason & fundamentally occupied that I didn't bother reminding the guys to save my stuff on the D drive, I thought that the mohandis knows me well for 6 years now and he always does keep my documents safe. Bad news, the mohandis who worked on my PC that day was another mohandis & by the time I received it & checked my treasures of many many university researches, personal journals & literary writings that were composed through long years of mine, all the pix I've been collecting & other significantly dearing letters & e-mails & msgs from my beloved old friends.... Gone!
I had the worst days ever for the following... a trauma.
My point is, one can never count the gloomy incidents that they got forced to face, or depressing against-will decisions they grow obliged to make.
Every morning you wake up, dose not necessarily promise to be your day!- This isn't a call for becoming a gloomy Gus, wet blanket or a party pooper! It's just a hint for us all, to try handling life as it is, with the whole load of crap it offers. And as Prozac A7madita suggests on his blog: "SMILE! Life is shit anyways! :D"

Have a bright morning everybody! ;)

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Soundtracked by: 'Insan Akthar'- 3abdalmajeed 3abdallah.

When the upsetting moments - any loss in this case- recur just to get me into the blues, I try as much to look at the bright side. I know that when one door is closed, another is opened. And I'm just quite sure that God always has a better plan for me. It only takes a careful look & true determination to accept the change.

* Refer to 'Who Moved My Cheese?' :)

Wishing Me a Special Day!

2006-11-21T22:40:00.000+03:00

Everyday I discover a new me!
Everyday should be celebrated!
An hour and 7 minutes from now.. going to be a special day.. A day, that I'm determined to lable it "The Ultimate Contentment Day!"
A new era.. This one is; indeed; A New Era!
Happy BirthDay Me!
xoxo
* going on 22/11